A couple of things I've been working on..

The last couple of weeks have been...well...challenging. Here's a couple of starts that I've created...

Moving Home to Indiana

I had been home
for so long
at least til you
came along
Now I know where
my heart belongs
and I'm moving to Indiana

Home was on
the west coast
With the places I
have left my ghost
Now I have picked
up my fence posts
and I’m moving to Indiana
(unfinished)


HOLD

Hold me down
Hold on to me
I dont know
how long
I can face this feeling
without giving in....

hold me down
hold on to me
I’m trying so hard
not to fear
every thing
I cannot see

Hold me down
Hold on to me
be my lifejacket
as this river
of love flows
on through me

Hold me down
Hold on to me
be my lover
as the winds
of pleasure
coarse over me

Hold me down
Hold on to me
when I hide
from you
I hope that you
can find me

Hold me down
Hold on to me
because i want
you right here
no matter what i do
i need you beside me

Hold me down
Hold on to me
(unfinished)

Assignment for this week...

Watch (possibly re-watch) "High Fidelity" with John Cusack. Find one thing that you always wished that you would be able to do, and find a way to do that for this coming year. Sometimes going back to a place in your life where you had a dream that no one could touch will re-invigorate a fire for you that life might have tried to extinguish.

Untitled. (unfinished)

If and when the anger starts
This is when the teardrops fall
More of me and less of us
Hurries our relations to our loss

Everyone is in my head
I keep hearing what they've said
Love aint work; that aint right
Love is beautiful; not a fight

This is hard, I can see
She can give it all for me
Now afraid that I'll lose
Have nothing but water on my shoes

Sometimes, she won't know why
She just breaks down to cry
Nothin's wrong, she will say
She's not living for today

Tomorrow's just another day
Maybe it'll be better anyway

Everyone is listening
to the words I don't sing
Everything's fine, Everything's right
I shut up now, here comes the fight

She'll put up a damn good fight
then lay like a lamb into the night
She'll give it up when she's right
lives to love another night

Untitled. (unfinished)

Sometime you'll learn the journey
is never quite as far
As the one that you're learning
will not ever stop

Even I've accomplished
all the things I've wanted to
Somehow all the answers
aren't as beautiful as you

I know I can't turn back time
and make everything work out right

Left of Me. (unfinished)

I will rest
only when this fire
in my chest
gives up on me

chorus:
even though
I am broken now
this fire
will keep burning down
til there is ashes
left of me
(end chorus)

sometimes
you give me liquid
some days
you give me love
somehow I keep
on believing
somewhere there's a fire
that'll burn out for good

(chorus)

Untitled. (unfinished)

I keep breathing in
and breathing out

riding this world
despite my mind

when I'm with her
it seems to crumble with time

everything is jumbled
everything is confused

I try to stay humbled
but it's of no use

and I keep..
breathing in
and breathing out

I keep on wandering
wonder what it's all about

everything else is pandering
to find it's own way out

(all over) again. (unfinished)

It seems like I stepped
out into the sun
It seems like I walked
out only to run..
from the pain.

Can it be
that there is
too much
of a good thing?

Can I try
not to hurt
all it is
that I see?

I hide my
eyes in shame
as I walk out
through the rain..
again.

Just when
I thought I'd try
I'd hoped I could find
a quieter peace of mind
a way out of the pain..
again.

I see you've arrived
to try and start me up
all over again.

I hoped I could burn
all of this hurt
and love you
all over again.

Untitled. (unfinished)

faced with a man I cannot be
mired in a soul I cannot save
in your flash of light I cannot see
walking a road I dare not pave

My Muse.. (unfinished)

You know that I'd write one for you
and I can't help feeling like I do
It's like you were sent from Heaven

Although sometimes I get really tired
when I see you I get inspired
You bring me closer to the truth than I've ever been

Just because sometimes I go sing the blues
Don't mean a thing, because you're my muse
I just feel like I've never felt before

Sure baby there will be sometimes
where I'll put my anger into rhymes
make you look like a whore

Just remember that you love me
said you'd die before you'd leave me
more than any woman before

Just because you're mad at me
doesn't mean you should sail off
and just leave me ashore

Hey Everyone..

It's been a while since I've posted here and I know I need to get on it...so hopefully I'll be posting here once every couple days or so now that I've started to go through some of my stuff to see what is actually somewhat finished and close enough so that I can actually have it worth viewing. Anyway...away we go..